Heading up to Glasgow in a few weeks time!
Man do I love traveling.
15th May 2012
I can’t wait till I can pack my bags for an adventure outside the UK!
I love traveling so much. When I was younger all I ever wanted to do on holiday was play with the sand and locate myself at the side of the swimming pool all day. But now the thought of… being somewhere completely different to your home town.. why not make most of your surroundings your in? The beautiful landscapes, architecture, scenery…
This is when I beg myself to note down ‘travel the world’ as a future ambition.
Someday… I will.
Just appreciate the things you have.
Even if it’s the littlest things. Everything is there for a reason.
(Source: vvntran)
When I was little I used to think that being lonely was for losers. I didn’t like being lonely because it made me feel that nobody liked me. I always wanted to be with my friends constantly, from walking to school to stepping foot back in my house.
But now.. I feel that being lonely is a little thing you can treasure. I might sound downright stupid but I like being surrounded by my own thoughts. Nothing but my own thoughts. I like sitting down having a good book to read. I like drinking a cup of green tea and listening to the house breath. I like concentrating on my work with no distractions. It’s calming. No fuss and definitely no stress. I enjoy being lonely.
(Source: vvntran)
Some people just don’t understand that I don’t get along with her. I know it’s quite hard to believe but I don’t at all. I just want to tell her that I do love her, but I can’t bring myself to do it.
I remember that day when she came out crying and screaming from her bedroom and asked me ‘what would you do if I died?’ I would never forget that. There a various ways you can ask this question, but the way she said it to me just gave me a sense that she was going to do something stupid. But it just shows how much she cared and loved me. Even though she never tells me, I can tell by the way she looks at me.
I hated that day. I had school in the morning as well and when I came back home I saw the kitchen glass table smashed into pieces. Scattered all around the house. At that point I accepted that everything’s going to change its ways. From starting to a new begging. At the end you got to let it go.
Keep strong.
So many people are influenced by society’s negative actions. It is so disheartening watching all these young children grow in a world full of negativity. There is so much more they need to see to just one side of the world.
The world is lacking determination and motivation these days. The barrier need to be broken. I want to see young children with big dreams. I want to see elders succeed in their ambitions. I want to see everyone with their head up high. I want to see proud faces.
But how can I if all I see is this generation tied up in this state.
lets just put it this way…
i’m physically, mentally and emotionally tired. i know i shouldn’t think this way. that’s why i’m smiling in the outside. but deep down inside me it’s like my soul is trapped somewhere.. somewhere, where i can’t seem to find it.
i can’t find myself.
Looking back… my life was so much more complicated in 2011.
Even though I was in high school where the work was 10x easier then college… my life was complicated due to the amount of time I spent around friends. Fall outs, arguments, bitchiness overload….
Now in 2012… I don’t really go out anymore. I don’t really talk to anyone. I’m so busy these days with College and chippy girl work, I just don’t have the time to sit back and think. I just want to read my book that I’m into at the moment, but the constant reminder of exams in 3weeks times makes me stop and revise. I’m lacking so so so much sleep.
…. 1am, back to doing textiles work.
18th April 2012
I wish I had a big room with nothing in it except with a table and a lamp. Centered right in the middle of the room. Then, when I need to study I’ll have no distractions whats so ever. All of my concentration on my work, making is to a high standard I am happy with.
I wish too much.
